Dear self,
You are young,
And people just see you as someone who is there to depend on them.
Some don’t even have hope that you will amount to anything in this world.
They treat you as they like.
You clean their house while their kids look on,
When visitors come you are never introduced as their own
You are never even seen in public at all.
Your role is to carry out the heavy activities around the house because that is all they see you as; a house help.
And all you see is a house not a home!
Soon they will get tired of you encroaching on whatever they provide for their family so they will pass you on to the next person like a rag.
At your age, you don’t know that that is what they see you and your future as.
But you are growing. Things will change.
They will start to realize that “luck” as they call it, is with you.
You, however-even at your young age-know that it is the hand of God!
He is working new and great things into your life.
The words that you grew up hearing from the past about who you will turn out to be about will start disappearing because you become this whole new being.
And they will see it!
Suddenly you’re the one, who will board planes like taxis,
Build houses,
Help them out with medical expenses,
Pay their children’s fees,
Connect them to business opportunities and provide financial support to ALL of them.
Then they will start to feel like they should own you.
They will want to introduce you to all their friends and the people they know.
They will invite those people to your ceremonies and give you all the respect they think that you now deserve.
They will prepare for you the best meals and take good care of you.
You’re probably asking yourself where all these displays of affection are right now at your age?
You’re not alone because I write this wondering,
“Where were all these things then?!” When I needed them the most?!
Where was the love and affection when I didn’t have the financial means to make their lives better? Seriously?!
Anyway that’s not the focus of my letter. It is not worth it. For you eventually learn to stand on your own two feet.
You will make your own decisions and be accountable for your own well being.
You will use all the confusion and pain from your childhood as a stepping stone to a bright bright future.
And even though you lost your parents at age 2 and a half, do not worry!
For you eventually find home, within yourself.
So hold on tight, for things will get better!
From Rena Babs
The 2018 You…
